2026-09-29
I wonder how I've ended up where I am in life. How much say did I have over my life path? Is this where I wanted to be? Did I have any choice? Does anyone? Does freewill exist?
The grass is always greener on the other side. I can imagine a life in which I followed my passions instead of letting life drag me along.
What if I had fully become a scientist? Realistically, would I like that job? Would making a job out of my passion disenchant the passion?
I think it works for some people, but I think I need some amount of distance between my passions and my work. I need to have hobbies for the sake of having hobbies, without discoloring them with the worry of monetizing them.
I think humans deserve that peace, to do something we love with a part of our lives without worrying about how good it is, how profitable it is, or how it will contribute to our future.